If you find yourself bringing up the past and discussing it with friends or even strangers looking for their acceptance or approval of your behaviour and consequences. Then you're not alone ...
Then you're probably defining yourself by your past choices and as a result are suffering.
As long as there is this need in you for you to tell someone of your past choices in search of acceptance or forgiveness, that in itself is a sign of your own self rejection. When you forgive/accept that in yourself, there is no need for external validation.
With great help I’ve come to know that and I want to invite you to accept my guidance in return.
Although only you can free yourself, we all need a little help sometimes.